I have been planning for some time to write about Chanukah, and some of the Chanukah miracles God has performed in my life in the past. And truly, God has shown some amazing miracles during this Festival of Light. However, I am not in an overly joyful, jubilant spirit to write about past miracles.
As these eight days and eight glorious nights are coming and going, I am asking God to send a miracle or two my way. I have been trying so hard to fight a pseudomonas infection in my respiratory tract since July. Over and over again, God keeps placing roadblocks in my way. I think I find a way to finally receive the treatment I so desperately need, and God obstructs my course of action.
Yes, I know what Scripture says, "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path" (Proverbs 3:5-6). I am trying to remain patient. I am trying to let God lead me. But, I so desperately want to sleep through the night without being woken up, feeling as though I am drowning and coughing up globs of mucus. I want to be able to speak without breaking out in violent coughing spells. I want to get through the day without a sore throat, aching ears, painful joints, fevers, etc., etc.
I asked God in October when I would get the treatment I needed to be free and clear from this infection. The answer He gave me upset me: I will have to wait to receive the proper remedy. I don't know why God is making this so difficult, but perhaps He will use Chanukah to inspire me and assist me in waiting. In these darkest days of the year, may God's light shine forth brightly, giving us a renewed sense of warmth and hope. May God richly bless you today and everyday. Happy Chanukah!
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