In 2016, it was a year of much change. My health started taking a fast nose-dive. I could no longer use the energy needed to maintain friendships. I was finding it harder and harder to attend church services and Bible studies. Things which were once simple for me were becoming nearly impossible.
In this midst of this turmoil, I learned my very dear friend, Milly, passed away from respiratory failure, a complication of her Mitochondrial Disease. Her death struck me deep inside. I have known many people who have died from Mitochondrial Disease, but none of them were my close friend. Milly lived her life as best she could. She posted YouTube videos almost weekly for several years. Upon her passing, being able to view her YouTube videos was a tremendous comfort to her family and me.
Two years ago, as I was sorting through my new health symptoms and trying to cope with Milly's death, I decided to leave a legacy behind for my family and friends. I am not technologically inclined and making videos is not my cup of tea. However, I have always had a fondness for writing. I thought I perhaps could write a few blog posts as a way for those who love me to be comforted when God brings me Home.
What I could not imagine upon starting this blog was that it was at such a pivotal point in my Mitochondrial Disease. Three weeks after creating this blog, I developed significant issues breathing. As the months rolled by, I was fighting with all my might to breathe. No one, not even my doctors, seemed to have recognized that I was in respiratory failure. As with all things, God perfectly timed the start of my blog with a new chapter in my life--my battle to breathe.
This blog has grown to be so much more than black words typed on a white page. It has become a refuge for me. When things go well or adventures go awry, there is great comfort being able to write. Oddly, as I write, my perception often changes. God often allows me to see Him at work...to see Him working all things for good. This blog has greatly changed my relationship with God. I no longer see Him as a figure far away in the clouds. Rather, I see Him every day and almost every moment working by my side to mold me and shape me into the person He wants me to become.
To everyone who reads the random thoughts in my brain which God transpires into logical subject matter, thank you! Thank you for coming along for the journey for the past two years. Thank you for your love and encouragement. I wish I could say these next two years will be filled with my recovery and returning back to normal life. However, I know this will probably not be the case. I have many critical decisions to make regarding my health. I pray God will continue to lead me and guide my medical team in the way we should go. I pray that God's love and peace completely overflows your cup. May God richly bless your life!
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