Every week, I search and search for precious energy to get through to week, to get through the day. When evening comes, my body feels as though lead weights are attached to all my limbs. My eyes ache, and my head throbs with pain.
I had grand visions of taking some time off this summer, but that never came to fruition. Too many things occurred such as trying to get all my medical videos edited and uploaded to YouTube. Also, my health was not fantastic. I was slowly recovering from an infection in my brain.
Week after week, I pushed myself to continue on. But now, I am at my breaking point. I need some time off. It has been more than a year since I have taken any time away from YouTube and social media.
With that said, I am taking some time away from being online. I am going to rest, recuperate, and not respond or even check social media. If people email me or message me with some urgent issue, I will sadly not be there for the person. I am trying not to feel guilty. Instead, I am trying to fortify myself and tell myself that it is ok to step away. It is ok to take time for myself.
I hope everyone is well. I hope everyone carries on. I hope people understand I need to take some time away from the stresses of YouTube and social media and allow my body to rest.
I will pray for your return to better health. May God bless you.
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DeleteIt is totally understandable. I wish I was there to comfort and keep you company during this time.
ReplyDeleteMay The Lord Jesus Heal you completely!
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DeleteI’ve been down similar roads as you have 3X. John14:10-14 leads to Mark11:21-26; (verse 26 defines rights to move mountains of sickness. I started as far back in my childhood as I could remember and said I have no unforgiveness towards____ proceeded through my life ); 21 says have faith in God but original said faith of God: when God said let there be light there was; when Jesus said peace be still the storm stopped, when we say I loosen all disease processes related to my illness-it must go (we must obey as commanded in Eph 6:17); say I have the complete armor of God on that blocks every fiery dart of the enemy including this disease process. We take authority but sometimes our authority isn’t enough; we need God’s extra back up, so we quote the sword of the Word in Matt.18:18 (but we must have our armor on each day EPH 6:17 then we can bind&loosen) I say to my illness, you got a foot hold disease but I bind you from going to any major organs or spreading or afflicting me anymore!!! God backs us up in Heaven in Matthew 18:18. We then can loosen it from us; I ask God to forgive those in the family that might have brought a generational curse on me (no matter how many generations back to remove this disease from me: Exodus 34:6-7) and claim Galatians 3:13 and ask God to take the sword of the Spirit and cut off all evil ties; Quote Isaiah 53:5. Sometimes we are walk it out for a time, until we learn the verse meant for us to over come the attack or maybe it’s a lesson for another: God writes our stories. We endure! I sometimes ask God to reboot my mind like rebooting a computer to a better time so my clarity and happiness is better and my hormones too. I give my Heavenly Father permission to restructure, reboot, tweak, delete, change or do surgery on my body to bring my body back to His original design. When the disease is the enemy is trying to kill you; you do everything you can think of!!!
ReplyDeleteI beg for God’s Mercy. Then ask God to tell the memory cells the truth for what is now healed: sometimes God heals parts of us we didn’t know needed healing. When you are healed and feel/see symptoms it’s memory cells or cytokines getting confused & reacting as before or the evil one trying to make you doubt: command the enemy according to Matthew 18:18. Bind it in every way shape or form from afflicting you or being there around you or sending more back to attack and loosen it to a remote island to never leave or speak of you in any way shape or form, or your blogs, your family, your passwords or phone number or email. Jesus loosened them in a direction (into pigs). Never give up. You are a blessing to many!!! Be thou healed in the name of Jesus Christ born of the Virgin Mary! May God reveal the path to complete healing in Jesus’s Name!!
Thank you so much for sharing. I appreciate all the insight and information.
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