End of Summer Blues

I love summer, and I always have big plans. I create a mental list of what I want to do and a general timeline for getting everything accomplished. This year, I wanted to get all my YouTube videos which would be released this summer edited and then take a week off. I imagined I would have time to work on my book, enjoy time outside and perhaps watch a movie. However, my summer did not turn out this way.

I spent a lot of my summer editing videos. All my videos took a long time to put together. On my one YouTube channel, I was posting videos from my trip to Iceland. Those videos took an ASTRONOMICAL amount of time. I feel like I did not spend that much time in the past editing travel videos, but this year, the videos came together slowly. Also, I wanted to record voice-overs for some of the tours I went on. The voice-overs added a lot of time needed to edit (and also to film) the videos.

I am happy to report, all the videos have been edited. I am sad to report, this week the final video is going to be released, which means, I need to work on next week’s video. Once again, I have no time to take a break.

On my other channel, I have finally gotten through my medical escapade of getting treatment for a fungal infection in my brain. I have one more video I plan to release about having a fungal infection. That video is slated to be released this week. Then, I have nothing planned. Perhaps I will do a video explaining how the fungal infection has affected my brain, but perhaps, I will pivot and focus on a different subject matter. Nonetheless, I have no videos completed for next week.

I do not like to be in this position. I like to have at least two weeks of videos (but preferably four weeks of videos) ready at any moment. I do this as insurance in case I become very sick or simply do not have time to film.

Here we are, at the end of summer. Not only did I not get to take a break, but I am also scrambling to produce videos.

I am trying to fortify myself and encourage myself that this is all ok. God wants me to be in this situation. I was listening to a preacher talk about a rather famous person in the religious community. The famous person had an amazing mind and had so much he wanted to accomplish. However, a series of events occurred which prevented the person from doing anything more than running between his two jobs. In the end, the person was able to break free from his work and write incredible texts which are still used to this day. 

I need to take strength and remind myself, if God wants me to accomplish something, I will be given the time, energy, and strength to do so. In the meantime, I should not be sad that I was not able to enjoy a week off this summer. Perhaps I might be able to enjoy some time off next summer.