On August 1, 2016, I decided I should start writing a blog. My health was stable. My life was rather boring. Very shortly after starting the new project, I suddenly had difficulty breathing. During the next several months, I retreated to my bed because I was constantly short of breath. I struggled to keep posting to my blog because I was extremely exhausted.
In late November 2016, I decided I should organize a Bible study. I submitted my request to host the event at our local community center. I waited and waited for the person to contact me with the event's approval. On December 6, 2016, I was rushed to the hospital because I could not breathe. I was started on non-invasive ventilation. The next day, I received a phone call the Bible study had been approved. I now felt like I was underwater. How am I going to go to Bible study now that I am having severe issues breathing? I double-downed and tried not to think about it.
Somehow in the weeks and months to come, God gave me to the energy to keep on going to Bible study. When I got my tracheostomy and ventilator in May 2017, I was sure these new medical devices would scare people away. Instead, I found tremendous support, and the Bible study grew.
This spring, boredom crept into my life. Bible study was cancelled indefinitely. I had extra time in my day. After my mom kept pestering me to start a YouTube channel, I finally made the leap and filmed my first video. I could have never imagined less than three months into the endeavor, my health would take a nose-dive. I now was really scrambling. Bible study had resumed; I had to create a new YouTube video once a week; I needed to keep posting to my blog. I was juggling doctors' appointments, trips to the emergency department and hospitalizations. I was lamenting my decision to start so many endeavors.
The one good thing about it all is I need all these outlets to survive. This blog helps me see God in my life. When writing about events, I suddenly realize how much God was leading and directing my path. Bible study provides a wonderful emotional support group. I rely heavily on the attendees for their love of God and their ability to help lift me up. And YouTube keeps me going. I am constantly thinking about content for my next video. Often I have roadblocks, but then a situation will arise with my ventilator or health, and that will lead to creating a great YouTube video. Moreover, I have been in contact with people from all around the globe, which inspires me to keep on keeping on.
If you think I am up for another endeavor, I am sorry to disappoint you. I am extremely tired and am barely getting through my days. I have enough on my plate and enough health challenges to last me a lifetime. I am very thankful and very grateful God has allowed me so many opportunities to connect with the world around me. It has changed my life.
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