YouTube makes me smile

As I sit in the emergency department (ED) enduring yet another ED visit, tears want to spring forth from my eyes. I tell myself I need to be strong. It is just the ED. It is just a room. It is just another round of tests, poking, prodding and being asked endless questions. But the grief and emotion of having my health slip so quickly overwhelms my soul.

I click open my iPad. There in my web browser is one of my YouTube videos. I play the video. On the screen, there is a girl so happy and so glad to be alive. I allow her joy to lift my spirits. It is odd how my own happiness recorded in a video a few weeks ago can bring a smile to my face in the midst of so much drama. I click through a few more of my videos and soon my heart is as light and joyous as the girl I see in front of me.

When filming my videos, I always tell myself I have to be upbeat. I NEED to be full of laughter. It is often hard to get the cheerfulness mode running, but when I see myself on my computer screen, I suddenly AM very happy! It is such a joy and blessing to record videos. It is a thrill to have subscribers and people view my work. It gives meaning to a life which often feels as though its worth plummeted long ago.

Whatever path lies before, I am so grateful and so thankful God lead me to creating a YouTube channel. To have videos of me happy available at the touch of my fingers gives me great comfort in a time of great need. Who knew the best medicine is seeing yourself on YouTube? May my YouTube videos bring joy and blessing to all who view them.