My heart overflows with love and joy as I read the plethora of well wishes and kind messages. Thank you to everyone who has made this such a wonderful New Year! For much of 2017, I have been eagerly waiting for this day. With each test, medical procedure, hospitalization and doctor's appointment, I would encourage myself that New Year's Day was only "x" many days away. I was bound and determined to see another year.
My optimistic wish for this year is to not have any doctor's appointments or hospitalizations. This, however, is just a pipe dream. I already have four doctor's appointments scheduled, and most likely will be back in the hospital very soon. My one gift I did give myself was disobeying my doctor. I have had a respitratory tract infection since July. In December, this infection flared up, resulting in me being hospitalized to receive IV antibiotics. Upon discharge, I was switched to oral antibiotics. Very quickly, the pneumonia came roaring back. My doctor switched me to a different antibiotic and said if I did not improve in two days, I needed to go back to the hospital. My symptoms did not improve. Instead of going back to the hospital, which would have likely resulted in me being hospitalized over New Year's, I have patiently endured the infection and told my doctor I would seek medical attention after January 1. Now, it seems, I must reluctantly live up to my side of the agreement. As much as I dislike being sick with pneumonia, the thought of stepping back into the hospital really saddens my heart.
With all this said, my realistic wish for this year is to be healed from this respiratory tract infection. I also pray the pain in my kidneys soon disappears, and my flaring pancreas calms down and will allow me to eat again without becoming very ill.
Thank you all for being part of my life. It is such a blessing to be overwhelmed with love and joy on this special day!
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