As I go from week to week creating material for YouTube videos, I find this blog a wealth of information. Many of my YouTube videos are based on one of my blog posts. With that said, it is always a walk down memory lane as I re-read my experiences from that last 4+ years.
It is always a mixture of emotions remembering and reading about my previous experiences. I have learned so much. And as much as I want to say I have grown spiritually, I am always blown away when I read about my faith. Really? I had that much trust in God all the way back in 2016?
As I read my blog posts, I am sad when I read about a bad medical situation, but I always smile as I think about the miracles and abundant blessings God bestows upon me. I rejoice reading about good times, and thank God I made it through some really horrible scenarios. And sometimes I just laugh.
One thing I am always grateful for is not knowing how situations will pan out. I am grateful I could not foresee three years ago all the pain and mental anguish I would endure during the next year as I tried to get medical treatment for a cyst which was blocking my main pancreatic duct. (Translation into every day English: a cyst was blocking all the enzymes my pancreas was releasing to digest food. Any enzymes my pancreas made stayed in my pancreas and digested my pancreas.)
I sit here three years later in another pancreas flare-up, I wonder how this will turn out. Do I have another cyst, or is scare tissue obstructing my pancreas duct? What is causing my increase in pancreas pain? What can be done to relieve this pain? Like all things, I will just have to wait until one day this too will be a blast from the past.
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