Thinning then thickening, never quite happy

All my life, I have had very thick hair. Since the eighth grade, I have been cutting my hair for Locks of Love. I get my hair cut, let it grow and then cut it off again for a hair donation. My hair is so thick, it cannot be cut off in one single pony tail. (A hairstylist once tried, and her scissors broke.) Instead, my hair has to be divided up into 4-5 sections and then cut. I am often told each one of the sections of my hair is equivalent to what an average hair donation is.

Last year, when pancreatitis was making it extremely difficult to eat and thus my weight rapidly plunged, my hair began to thin. When I brushed my hair, I often was appalled at the amount of hair which fell out. Very soon, my hair was about one quarter to one third its regular thickness. It was quite depressing having such thin hair. People still commented how pretty my hair was, but I often lamented to myself how my hair was so thin.

Since September, I have been able to eat more and started gaining weight. Very soon, my hair no longer was falling out. Over the next several months, my hair began growing back. At the beginning of this month, I noticed how thick and full my hair was. I was overjoyed it grew back, but then I started silently complaining that my hair was a wild, tangled mess again. The only way I can seem to keep it under control is by tying it in a tight bun or in a braid. (When I was growing up, my brother always teased me in the mornings before I combed my hair that I looked like Mufasa from the Lion King. My hair was a bushy lion’s mane around my face.)

So now I am happy to have my thick hair back, but I also find myself not quite happy about having to keep my hair tied tightly to prevent myself from looking like I just stepped inside from being in a violent windstorm. I keep telling myself God has richly blessed me with an abundance of hair...hair which can be grown and donated to help those who do not have hair. With that, I send up praises to God thanking Him for His loving kindness and thanking Him that my hair can be a blessing to others.