Motivation From the Grave

I went to Bible study tonight, and a woman who attended Bible study in December 2021 came. She owns a home in our community, but only visits for a few months a year. She lives in Canada for the rest of the year.

As soon as I saw her, I immediately asked her how her husband was. He was one of the nicest people I have ever met. My dear friend informed me her husband passed away in January 2022.

Tears sprang to my eyes. 

This last year has been incredibly hard. There have been so many times I did not want to go to Bible study, but I kept going because I knew one day my two friends would be back in town. They had told me they would return in early 2023.

For many weeks, I fought to get through the time at Bible study. The one thing which kept me going was knowing my two friends would return.

I was informed by a member of Bible study my dear friend was back in town. I thought it was odd only the wife was mentioned and not the husband. I prayed to God. I asked if her husband may have passed away. I heard a voice say he died shortly after their last visit. I did not want to believe what I heard.

When I went to Bible study, the woman said, “My husband died shortly after our last visit.” I was thunderstruck. It was almost the identical words I had heard during my prayer.

I am very grateful for this man’s life. For one year, he kept me motivated. May his memory continue to be a blessing.

Stressed out! And there goes my blood sugar!

Yesterday was a stressful day. I had to film a YouTube video and quickly edit it in time for release tomorrow. I usually do not film, edit and upload a video all in the same week, but I forgot this week was Feeding Tube Awareness Week.

After frantically pulling everything together, I was exhausted. I thought I would relax in bed. I was in the midst of reading God’s Word, when my mom came into my room. Someone down the street was selling medical equipment. It was possible the person was selling an item I had been looking at buying. My mom was going to look at it by herself, but I wanted to go with her to check out the items. I hoped in the car. In a flash, we were at our neighbors.

The neighbor is moving and was selling wheelchairs, a scooter and two rollator walkers. The walkers were the items I was interested in. I need someplace to set my ventilator and heated humidifier on which has wheels and is easy to move. It was hard to choose between the two walkers with wheels. I suddenly felt very unwell. My blood sugar was dropping. I quickly selected a walker, and we swiftly drove back home.

When I entered my home, my body was shaking. I immediately ate an apple and laid down. My head was spinning, and I felt as though I could not breathe. I rested for an hour. When I was a little bit more steady, I connected my IV nutrition called TPN, and infused it. The TPN has a large amount of sugar in it. Soon, my blood sugar stabilized.

For the rest of the night, I felt as though I had been run over by a train. Usually my blood sugar does not drop that quickly after leaving home. I guess I got stressed out trying to decide which medical item I wanted. This is one reason why I do not like shopping. My body goes haywire.